“Pick up your mat…”
I first noticed his unique legs when he was only days old. He was my only baby who refused to push back, to brace his knees, to heroically ‘stand’ on my lap in all of his fresh baby strength. Unlike the other boys, he didn’t jump in the jumper. Instead, he let his feet slide … Continue reading
One year ago….
This was me, one year ago this morning. It was 6:00am, I was showered and scared and about to drive to our local health center for my first ever experience with Cervadil in hopes of inducing laor with our youngest, who was apparently about twelve days overdue. One year ago…wow. One year ago, we … Continue reading
Forming and finding within the telling
This evening, I find myself reflecting on something unique within women; particularly those who have borne children. I’m thinking about t the pressing, necessary, unquenchable desire to share the story. Childbirth is, in many ways, indescribable. It is a terrible and amazing mystery; an initiation; a transformation. And in the end, after the gush and … Continue reading
One World Birth
Wow. This is so worth checking out. Increasingly, from my first pregnancy through to these post-postpartum weeks with this newest tiny, i am being drawn towards…something…within the pregnant and birthing and creating women. A doula? An advocate? Educator? Midwife? Communicator? I don’t know. But watching links like this gets my belly churning as I hear the … Continue reading
Baby-Moonin’
I have been Baby-Mooning over here. (think, honeymoon with emphasis on the Babe instead of the Honey). It has been wonderful. J arrived home two days before Balian was born (an unexpected and, in the end, providential, schedule change on the rigs). We had two days to catch up, rest, and prepare. On the night … Continue reading
one week
Wow…one week! One week ago tonight, I was becoming acquainted with my newest son and reveling in the story of his arrival. It’s hard to believe that a whole week has flown by already. It’s also hard to believe that he hasn’t been here all along. Balian is amazing. We honestly grin and coo when … Continue reading
Balian Justice: Birth Story
This is just the initial story. I expect there will be loads of processing and reflection in the days to come. I hope it makes sense…. I’m not in any ‘romantic writing zone’ just now, this is just what happened, as it happened. So unexpected and random and exactly what it needed to be. Characters: … Continue reading
not sure what to expect
In twelve hours I’ll head to the hospital to begin an induction. It’s ‘just’ Cervidil, but outside of my sphere of experience and preference. Any great tips? 😉 Going to go relax now and perhaps ask my husband to paint my toes as I can’t get anywhere near them. Looking for a deep night’s sleep. … Continue reading
beckoning
Wrestling. Rolling. Turning. You within me. Watching. Sensing. Holding. Me around you. Created within me, for me…for a time. Your world seems so complete. Safe and dark and muted. Everything you think you need. But it is only for a time, only for a cocoon of creation, only a time of prophecy awaiting promise. My … Continue reading
Whole Dei 